brave

i love her.

so nichole nordeman was at willowcreek and the person before me in line was the last to get her autograph. sigh. oh well. i'm glad i still go the cd tho. and bobby got me her first cd for like...no reason! how nice :) now i have all of them...other than the live one, but i don't really want that one. i love how honest her lyrics are. she's a fantastic story teller. and dude, this girl's hilarious! who woulda known.

she told us about this girl that she met when she was on tour. i think she was on the team that helps her out and stuff...i don't quite remember. but she was one of those christians that seemed TOO happy, all the time. hallelujah's in every sentence. just irritatingly friendly. and somewhere along the line, she decided to be best friends with nichole (yes, i call her nichole cuz it's like we're tight or something.) but something in her told her that, y'kno what, no one can be this happy all the time. there must be something deeper going on here, more than she let's on. but she ignored it. it got to the point where she would try to do everything she could to avoid her. she just couldn't be bothered by someone like her.

one day, one of her friends go up to her and said, hey did you hear about meredith? and nichole's response was, sigh...now what? apparently the night before she had taken her own life. she went on to say that just the huge amount of shame she felt for turning someone like that away when she saw all the warning signs was just overwhelming. i really appreciate her for sharing something so personal, so real. she may be crazy talented, but she's just like you and me...missing opportunities to reach out to those around us, or worse, choosing not to. every moment counts. you never know how much one moment can impact someone's life. every moment counts.

For Meredith and all I wish I’d said.

It will find you at the bottom of a bottle
It will find you at the needle’s end
It will find you when you beg and steal and borrow
It will follow you into a stranger’s bed

It will find you when they serve you with the papers
It will find you when the locks have changed again
It will find you when you’ve called in all your favors
It will meet you at the bridge’s highest ledge

So baby don’t look down, it’s a long way
The sun will come around to a new day

So hold on
Love will find you
Hold on
He’s right behind you now
Just turn around
And love will find you

It will find you when the doctor’s head is shaking
It will find you in a boardroom, mostly dead
It will crawl into the foxhole where you’re praying
It will curl up in your halfway empty bed

So baby don’t believe that it’s over
Maybe you can’t see ‘round the corner…

To hang between two thieves in the darkness
Love must believe you are worth it, you're worth it